Shame

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Sophia
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She wasn't a princess.
But sat frozen in hot emotions 
Unknown to me as I browsed through the notes
The dark eyes shining in the corner 
The gloom solidified 

The years lost in translation
Family history unknown 
I checked for the obvious and the known

The ICD10 
Amitriptyline...
Comeback in 4 months

She walked away from my ignorance 
Into the waves of ruminations 
Of the millions of body parts strewn 
Over the dirt roads she only knew

Home...

Where her family's blood marked
A distant place called 
Rwanda


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Child warrior
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Any seizures in parents? 
We don't know Sir
We found him crawling in the streets of Congo... 
I saw shining white teeth 
Then the forgotten blood haunted me...

I am not hiding behind a tricolor flag
Being just ashamed of my own 
Existence...


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Here...
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When I shut the microwave door

In this frigid winter

The popcorn smell mixed with

The aroma of coffee freshly brewed

The newspaper on the table, 

Shattered images from satellite

An African village in summer

Charred bodies 

And smell of gun powder

I am ashamed and guilty

For being alive as a human